a bunch of random thoughts- theres got to be more to life.
well. where to start. im just an empty empty girl these days so sad. i mean ktown is getting better and better everyday dont get me wrong. the people are nicer than ever ive been having a blast ive gone on dates ive sang my heart out in a bar ive acted on a stages. things i love that i found here in knoxville. but, there has to be something more. i go to these classes everyday and look around these people know what they want to do why they are here i dont belong here, but then again im not sure where i belong.
i miss you i miss everbody.
so apartment 1312 is having troubles beyond troubles. poor loni the kid she was dating.. talk about asshole. she ran into him with his ex fiance when she asked what he was doing he said i love her, she said what were you doing with me then? … jealously tool… what a douche. then theres kara, her boyfriend in nyc well. they are on a “break” what the hell i a break anyway. stupid. she saw a picture of him kissing another girl that was against the rules in their “break” i guess.. poor girl. catherine is having troubles but shes not one to open up.. but we do feel sorry for her. and me welll dumb ass me right when im finally content with a past i regret damn kid texts me to let me know he hates me. hehh. yep im a strong girl but i can only take so much. its just not right. he’ll get what he deserves, just as everyone else does
i cant wait to sing, i cant wait. my book of all my songs has turned into 3 books its so exciting. all you boys the old ones the new ones the ones i hurt the ones who hurt me i have dozens and dozens of songs inspired by yall. thanks.
i hope every christina out there has their brittany leigh truzzolino. its the only way i get by shes my best friend.
so. im rambling its fine only like 4 people look at this anyway if that 
thanksgiving is coming and i can not wait to see my family to see my friends to be home. then christmas beautiful break its going to be amazing. kiara and i were talking about old times and how much we took for granted its nuts we truly have the best parents, friends, life. and ive been thanking God everyday <3
loni’s friend just got engaged the other day. she’s 23 its crazy i mean 23 is not that far away, not that i know ill be married by 23 but its so close, and you never know. i cant wait to get married, not that im rushing things but i just cant wait to find that person you know? and have the gorgeous dress, and invite everyone, and to open those doors and step toward that isle and see him the one i want to spend the rest of my life with standing there waiting for me:)
so basically , i am going to do something more with my life. if singing doesnt work we can go act if that doesnt work then we can write. i’ll find something and most importantly i’ll find whats right. Gods got my back
ive made all my apologies. ive tried and tried again. but there is no sense on trying to fix things you cant change. as hard as it seems time heals. life goes on
